21.10.13
Well I do want to thank you for going through all that you went through to get yourself to clarify with me as to what we are now, its clears up the air between us and i appreciate it a lot. I guess I couldn't have done so, making me the underdog of this. No problem, I do admit it haha. Just glad we could breathe better again.
I do wonder though, how much I would fight to get you back. Yes I do miss you. I do want you in my life. To be able to spend as much time with you as possible, every day, hour, minute, second, you name it.
I still love you.
But how much is all of these worth after having already caused you so much grief. From the start I wanted you to be happy always, to be able to smile when you wake up in the morning, and be happy going to bed at night. However that was not the case.
Perhaps to love is to let go.
Moo:D
1:59 pm
20.10.13
Memories just seem to keep coming back. I miss those times.
Moo:D
12:19 am
19.10.13
Separation.
Time apart from each other, will it do us any good? It could. But not on these terms that we ended upon. Now it feels like a 'battlefield'. It is like we're at war :/ Whoever makes a move kinda puts themselves at a disadvantage. Something like that. I don't know already haha.
But of course we have both ourselves to blame. Or maybe to you it is just me? Well it'll always be like that and vice versa. As each day passes, one quarrel after another it's kinda of tiring and repetitive. Hence I feel it is pretty adequate for both of us to take some time off from seeing each other. Maybe it'll help.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Mine too. I wonder how long we'd both last being like this. It is suffering but yet it could prove to be a test as to whether we're really meant to be together. This wasn't the first time such a thing has happened and it did not turn out just as well as we thought it would be once we got back together not once, but twice. Yes I do admit I am the one who always call for it to be off. Yes those times are over stupid small things. Egoistic. That's what I am.
Solitude.
A life I'm living now.
Moo:D
4:44 am
